Not the Boss of Me

Hello darkness, my old friend. You've come to talk to me again.

Self doubt is my dark old friend. He comes to visit without an invitation. Self Doubt is a he not a she. He's very seductive and for that reason he is a man to me! Like I said, I never know when he's coming but suddenly there he is and there I am listening to him. No , I don't here voices but what I do is feel suddenly less worth it. There is a lot of creativity involved in Self Doubt's modus operandi so it never gets boring!

Today someone I know said to me "I love starting off the day feeling like a complete failure." Should I feel jealous? Seems my friend had been visiting her too. Self doubt is normal I guess in that we all feel it. In small doses it might serve some purpose. Without it we'd all be pumped up obnoxiously conceited snobs. Well more so than we already are as human beings! Maybe it helps motivate us? I personally prefer chocolate and gold stars by my name for motivation.

Over the years he has come and I have let him stay till he gets bored and moves on. Not good. It was really only recently I learned a very simple thing and as usual I learned it the hard way! I can't stop Self Doubt from coming for a visit. However I'm the only one who gets to decide if I let him stay or not and truthfully I've come to realize that "I'm just not that into him!" In my Oprah "aha moment" I realized I didn't have to let him stay. So like a flash of a neon light that splits the night, he was banished.

I'm pretty sure he's out there roaming and now he has some free time on his hands. So hop on a bus Gus. Just drop off the key Lee and get yourself free! Sing it!